Thursday, June 25, 2009
It was quite embarrassing when I found out this was not the case...in my first year of university.
...life would get easier as I got older
Some days, I so wish this one turned out to be true. Alas, it seems to get more complicated, more heart breaking at times and, in some ways, messier. But at the same time, the older I get, the more I come to accept who God has made me, the more I strive for His plan and the more peace I find.
...I invented words
One of these words was 'gimp'. Why I thought I invented words, I have no idea.
...I would be friends with my friends forever
This one makes me quite sad. I'm not very good at keeping in touch and as a result, many of my childhood and teenage friendships have grown apart. Even some of my college friends aren't as close as they once were.
...Jonathan Brandis was the coolest
I don't really think I have to expand on this one. You can see for yourself. Pure '90's stud.
...I would never be like my parents
I don't know how many times in the past couple years I have thought, "Oh geez, I sound like Dad." or someone(my dad) has told me, "You sound just like your mother!" If I had known when I was younger that this would be the case, I don't think I would have been very pleased. But I now recognize how lucky I am to have so many of my parents traits.
**These next two are going to make it sound like I was kind of a lonely kid. I wasn't. I think I just had an over-active imagination at times.
...there was a city of teeny people that lived under my bed
This was a belief I held early in my elementary school years of life. I would put my face under my pillow and a big billboard with my face on it would appear in their city so I could make announcements. That's also where I could type messages to them. I guess I was their leader? I think if you had asked me then if I thought the people were real, I would have firmly denied it. However, I think there was a very small part of me that hoped they were really there.
...that my stuffed animals came to life when I left the room
Sometimes I would come into my room quickly and try to catch them interacting with each other. They were just so real to me. I loved them so much. Slowly, I came to the realization that they were, in fact, simply toys. And then 1995 came, and even though I was 12 years old, Toy Story rekindled my small belief and had me bursting into my room a few more times.
Friday, June 19, 2009
This was the title of an article I read a couple years back. In some situations, I have the tendency to keep my opinions to myself out of fear, lack of confidence, etc. I almost always regret it later.
I had to include this Post-It. The Office is one of my all time favorite shows. Their weekly antics always leave me laughing.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
The morning my nephew was born, I remember this anxiety in my heart. I was excited to meet him, of course, but it was something else. It was days, maybe weeks later when I finally realized what I had been experiencing. It was this strange combination of pride and helplessness. I was so proud of her for doing the incredibly amazing thing of giving birth. At the same time, I was acutely aware of the fact that by doing this amazing feat, she had to go through extreme pain. Pain that I could nothing about. She had to go through it and I had to sit on the sidelines and hope she'd be okay. There are few times in our present relationship that I feel like the little, helpless sister. Most of the time, it feels like we're on equal ground. But there are times when Shannelle shows incredible bravery through painful circumstances and I get that anxiety in my heart. And although I know she's got to get through it somewhat on her own, all I want to do is get her an extra muffin and make it okay.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
But you can give them to the birds and bees
I want money
I find myself sharing this sentiment the past couple days as money issues come to the forefront of my mind. Now, I know that technically, the best things in life are free: sun showers, laughing at a really funny story, taking a walk in an old neighborhood, making your nephew smile(although this does sometimes cost you a bit of your dignity). But there are times, like now, that I wish I didn't have to think about it. I like to imagine that someday, in the future, I won't have to worry about money. How I wish I could actually pull this card in real life.