Years ago, when I was knee high to a grasshopper(or maybe a bit older), I thought turning into either of my parents was a fate worse than death. I was a "free spirited child", or so I've been told, and my parents seemed slightly boring to me. Always wanting to be on time, to be responsible, work efficiently, all the things that turn an "energetic" child, such as myself, completely off. I never understood it. Why do something now when you can do it later, was often my motto and sometimes still is. However, the older I get, the more I come to realize....dun-dun-dunnnnn-I'm turning into my parents.
Now, the resemblance between my mother and myself is nothing short of eerie. Many people have told me that we also share some mannerisms, so turning into my mom was something I was preparing for. It was inevitable. I should just accept it. Turning into my dad on the other hand? I never saw it coming.
**I should state right now that both of my parents are wonderful people. I love them both but, like many people, I did not appreciate them in my younger years the way I do now.**
I like to think of myself of the perfect mix of OCD and laidback-ness(for the purposes of this blog lets pretend that's a word). There are certain things I'm fairly anal about. I like to have a plan but once I have a plan I can pretty much go with the flow. However, my desire for concrete plans, getting things done in a timely manner, in the manner I think they should be done(all of which are traits my Dad has in spades) are characteristics that have really come to show themselves in the last few years of my life.
The more leadership I take on in the church, the more the voice in my head says "Hey there, remember when you used to think your dad was nuts for acting like this? Welcome to the club!" At first, there was a part of me that was quite resistant to the discovery of Dad-like qualities(like I said, I hadn't been preparing), but now that I've had a chance to think about, absorb it, take a breath, I've decided to embrace it. However, along with this discovery I've made another one.
I am completely different than anyone else. I know this is something you learn in, like what, kindergarten? But recently, I've come to know it in a whole other way. I may be similar to my mom and my dad. I may be anal about following the rules of games, like my sister is. I have things in common with friends and family. But my combination is different. My path in life is going to look different than my friend's. The life I'm living now already proves that. I'm excited about the different way God is going to use me in my church. I'm excited about the different way God is going to use me in this world. I just hope I'm ready for it.